If you found your way here from the last page of your journal: you did well to look. This page won't tell you how to feel. It only says where someone is.
If it's urgent right now
If you are thinking about hurting yourself, or you feel you can't carry this alone right now: reach out for help today. It doesn't have to be a crisis that feels "bad enough".
findahelpline.com lists, country by country, which helplines are open, with numbers and hours. That list is kept up to date: what you find there is true at the moment you need it.
If there is immediate danger
Call your local emergency number right away, or go to the nearest emergency room.
If it isn't urgent, but it's heavy
The first step is usually smaller than it feels. Your family doctor is a good place to start: they know the way, they can refer you, and you don't need to have your story ready.
There are also grief support groups and organizations, many of them free, where you meet people who have lost someone too. Hearing someone who understands does something a book can't.
Some signs it's better not to carry this alone any longer:
- you've barely slept or eaten for weeks;
- ordinary days have stopped working — work, bills, home;
- you avoid everything that reminds you of them, including people;
- months pass and the pain doesn't change shape at all.
None of this means you are grieving wrong. It only means it's too much for one person to carry alone.
About this journal
Still With Me keeps you company while you write. It doesn't replace anyone: not a doctor, not a therapist, not a helpline, not the people around you. We are not grief therapists, and writing is not therapy. Writing can help sort what's crowding in, but it doesn't heal a loss and doesn't claim to.
It's okay to ask for help. Also now.